Beautiful Chaos

Carolyn K. McGraw


There is a melodic
chaotic beauty
hidden deep
within my
tainted heart
memories
hurtful refrains
stirring remorseful loss
Despair pressing in
hide it
bury it
don’t show it
I am taught
Can’t breathe
can't move
self-imposed shackles
weakening

waiting for wings of sweet release

Suffocating
suppression
draining who I am
invading
interrupting
who I wish to be
Desperation screams out
for transcendence
must get free of darkness
Crying wounds
seeking air
seeking light

must get disturbing commotion out
before it's too late
too late to live a lovely life
I know my cure
my melancholy remedy
grasp hope
begin change
stand in courage
reveal my captive story
compose my rambling dark tune

Freedom

melting ice
flowing water
resuscitating
heart song emerging
regenerating
echoing
not alone
Purging mind
healing heart
inspired hands
transposing pain
painting love
dancing
poetic soulful art
witnessed and admired
Divinely bestowed
exquisite
healing elixir
gently soothing
impassioned
wounded hearts
Celebrating melody
joyfully singing
this is who I am
beautiful creation
transfigured